Because of life in 3-D, I have not blogged (other than the infamous Christmas Letter blog) since November and I miss it. Things are not bad, in fact, they are incredibly good but also very hectic. As an Episcopalian, I am supposed to be celebrating Advent, the waiting for the gift of a child, pondering things in my heart. I find this hard because I am not naturally a good waiter. I do not ponder things for long before they are blurted out to the nearest person and then we’re verbally chasing rabbits since I am more of a talker than a thinker. Oh, I’m reading an Advent devotional, sometimes two even, but it does nothing to stop the physical world from telling me to GET ALL THE THINGS DONE QUICKLY. Since this appeals to me more than waiting, that is what I do instead.
I wonder if it would be okay if I just looked forward to the weekend of Christmas and the week after it until I can find that anticipatory waiting that I should be practicing. This weekend and the weekend after it…that’s when my spirit says I can take a deep breath. I always have ALL OF THE THINGS BOUGHT by that time. They are wrapped, under the tree, already given away at parties and the cards have been mailed days and days before. When all of those things are done, that’s when I can stop to ponder. Duty and responsibility before idleness, don’t you know. Like now…there are many things to be cleaned before tomorrow at lunch when company arrives. But because I know the list has been checked off, I have time to sit and talk with you. To ponder things while I am also talking with my fingers.
Life for the past month has shown me that
- all hope is not lost, even when you think it’s long gone.
- people can surprise you with things that you doubted was even in their repertoire.
- sometimes, just being invited makes you feel like they like you, they really like you.
- help will come just when you need it but not before so don’t sit and wait on it.
- some things are even too personal for ME to share in blogs or on Facebook.
I know. Whodda thunk it, right?